Being in the present moment. I am.
I am not engaged in any doing, so rather easy to be in the present moment. I have nowhere to go in a hurry. There are some errands to run, but I can set them aside for now. I am at a cafe and there are only a few people around.
Breath in and out.
I can taste my tea better than usual. So refreshing.
Some thoughts kick in from time to time. “What the hell are you writing about?” “Who the hell gonna read all these stuff?” “Why on earth are you writing this in English? “Who will proofread it?”
Ok, Ok. Those are the thoughts that are very familiar to me and even mild ones.
Conscious breath for break.
I have actually been listening to Echkhart Tolle’s programme for about 6 years. I took a break for a couple years in between, but I started again recently. To be honest, there are lots of questions in my mind.
I am not BELIEVING everything he said.
But the fact is that what he is saying is liberating. It was such an AHA moment for me. Feeling of aliveness.
Nowadays, it is not easy to talk about this kind of thing -so called “spirituality” here in Japan. We have to choose people to talk to. Some people show obvious hesitation, categorizing me as the other side of the spectrum.
I don’t have to talk about it. I am not obliged to talk about it. Even writing this here is not an obligation. I am not trying to send this to particular people. Having said that, I just want to make this statement as a reminder for myself.
People change. People’s ways of thinking change too. We get older everyday. Our thought ought to change accordingly. My thinking may change again, but I am in the present moment and write this thing.
As Eckhart mentions, awareness is always with us, never being away from us since we were born, right? If we are aware, we are aware that we are not our thoughts. It is as simple as that.
Present moment promotes me to look at the whole picture, not the tiny things occurring in my life. Do not focus on the tiny little me, but look around and see beneath it, deep down. How we are created. How we are interconnected. How we are met. How we are conversing with each other. How we are organized.
I have never talked about this seemingly crazy idea of being present and soaked in it where the power of presence may arise through me and write something, which should be the things that I really have to write, the things should be shared with people.
It is my first time to try this one. So, I guess it is just a rambling of what I was saying before. But, I believe it is worth while trying at least.
A few years ago, when I first tried to put his teaching into practice, I was not so happy with my corporate job and decided not to do that anymore. I tried to pursue certain career other than corporate one. At that time, I thought my decision was through awareness. However, now that I am recalling that time, it had been my ego trying to be a someone better than who I was.
I am not still sure whether I am now on the right path or not. Or, I am going find the right path for myself. But, at least, I believe I am in the different type of attitude. There is no pushing within myself. I am in the flow of the presence and idea through being in the present moment. It is so smooth and no pressure or stress.
I am not wanting to be at the end of writing this or wanting to convince someone or wanting to finish this with perfect idea or something. I do not know if someone would read it or not, maybe not, but there is no comparison with other people around here. Since, every one of us is unique, and we are all taking the several kinds of paths.
Anyway it is a good sign that there is no pressure or stress at least.
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